As Mother’s Day approaches I can’t help but be grateful to have my daughter back. After years of heartache, nothing makes me happier than spending this day with her and our family.
As most of these stories start, my daughter was a beautiful, caring and loving child. I knew she was going to grow up and be able to accomplish whatever she wanted to. Her teenage years were like most; no real trouble to speak of, just normal teenage stuff.
In her senior year her father and I caught her smoking pot. We grounded her and used discipline just as any parent would do. At the time my husband and I thought this was just a phase and it would soon pass.
Boy, were we wrong ¬– things only seemed to get worse.
When she went to the College nearby, she convinced her father and I to let her move into the dorms. She wanted to be a regular college student, hang out with friends, go to parties and study with her classmates.
As time passed she stopped coming home to visit, she would not take our calls and she looked terrible. My gut told me something was wrong but I convinced myself I was being paranoid. Eventually we discovered from one of her roommates that she was doing cocaine.
Eventually she failed out of school and moved in with some “friends”. My husband and I were distraught to say the least. For the next 5 years all of our attempts to help her were useless, I was so terrified that she was going to get arrested or worse. The phone would ring and I couldn’t bring myself to answer it.
I felt like I couldn’t talk to anyone about my daughter’s battle with cocaine. I was depressed and felt like a failure as a mother. My husband couldn’t even say her name without crying.
I remember the day like it was yesterday. I walked outside to get the paper and she was sitting on the front porch crying, she had hit the bottom and she knew it. She came inside and we just sat. We didn’t say much but it was one of the best feelings I had in a long time. I felt like my prayers had been answered and I somehow I knew it was the end of 5 years of heartache, and it was. She said she wanted to stop and needed help. We immediately went online and found a treatment center that specialized in cocaine addiction. She left for the facility 3 days later. It was a longer termed holistic drug rehab program.
So on this Mother’s day I have the best gift a mother could ever ask for. It was a hard road but my daughter is clean and sober and happy. My family is whole again and I am so thankful.